Even Artichokes Have Hearts.

I have always thought that if one thing goes wrong more than once with you, it's probably because you didn't do something right. For instance, if a certain number of people (any number bigger than one actually) starts to keep a distance from you it's because you're probably the cause of it. If you get in trouble constantly, it's because you are making that happen. Or is it?

I've decided that from now on I'll treat people close to me differently. When I was younger my grandmother used to say that when it rains it's because God was sad about something and then she'd ask me "what did you do this time, you shouldn't let God down, he would never do the same to you". I think this is such an Amélie Poulain thing! Come to think of it, her and I have a lot in common. I've never had close friends, my parents are completely unbalanced (but I keep idealizing things the other way around and that's where I go wrong, I know) I like paying attentions to details other people don't like, when people are distracted I like observing them and elaborating theories on what they might be thinking about; I like to drive and "play" air instruments even when there's people around and I do my best to ignore them and pretend I'm alone. I daydream too much and I want to help people whenever I can cause it makes me feel good to see them happy, that's the only thing I expect in return.

But probably these are the only things we have in common.